The Untold Secret

I'm a very emotional man...you know, i couldn't hold back tears on a touching movie, a song...
I guess, it is best describe as an untold secret.
I have a passion with music...they make me fantasize...

18th October part 1

The events of 18th October 2008 part 1

This was taken at 2AM. I can tell you, it was like SNOWING! I wish it was. hihi....
Not so clear...ya. Nvm,this was taken at 6AM. Yup. Look at the road. Its icy!The roads are coated with a layer of ice due to the rain from yesterday.
Today is Saturday but we still need to work...sort of. I don't mind cos its another reason to go out! So, setup my hair and ready to roll out! :)
7AM. oOo....oOo Snow ah Snow, where art thou?
After breakfast, ready to go on our rented car. It's really really cold.

Told you....This was the coolest. I really salute the car. It comes with a temperature sensor and will tune to the temperature you want in the car. 
Misty...visibility is low....and it is FUN!  Will be back for more cos after work, we want to town.

17th October 2008

The events of 17th October 2008

For the first time in my life, I don't want to get soaked in the rain. It was freezing cold, just like pouring ice water on you after you just came out from the bathroom. The temperature dropped to 8 degrees. Haha,..can't blame the weather because weather.yahoo.com already warned me about this. haha.

When it is raining, it's really gloomy here. Almost the whole day was gloomy. 

Mercator Center is 'the' hypermart cum supermart cum convinient store...except that it doesn't open 24-7, closes after 8PM and on Sundays. Mercator Center is everywhere in Slovenia. This is their main grocery shopping center.
This is our client's office. 
Taken after work. Freezing cold, about 4 degrees. We are the last to chow.
Well, you guess it right, we went to Venezia again and this time, we had Galileo Pizza. (Salmon pizza). Nice but a bit too salty. Very salty. haha

16th of October

The event of the day for 16th October 2008

Sunrise! 6AM! Jet lag....that's why I woke up at 4AM.

This is where we will be staying. Penzion Zbilje. Penzion means "Guesthouse". Zbilje is the town name. 

Our room.I sleep at the corner, near the window.....chilling

This is where I blog.
Heater but we never turned on...Macho man don't turned on heater.

Morning walk to the nearby lake...Swan Lake. 

This is my first encounter with a swan. It was so cold...ears and finger pain...about 13 degree in the morning and this swan swam so gracefully in the water....crazy.
Well, sometimes I think we are poorly fed in Malaysia.This is our breakfast provided by the hotel. SUPERB! 

Dinner time at Venezia, one of the famous Pizza-inn in town. 

We ordered 1 Large Pizza, and have it divided into 2. This is full. This is Venezia pizza. 

Nothing isn't good without beer. Union beer, Slovenia local beer. And next to it is Cockta, Slovenian local Coca-Cola. Well, older generation of Slovenians are still anti-Capitalist. They hate Coca-Cola. Cockta is good as it doesn't contain any caffeine.

Hehe.. me enjoying my beer. Dinner was Euro 10.90 for 2 person. Budgeted. keke..

We went to the same place. This time we ordered, Household Pizza. Darn. It's SUPERB! I had Union as well . Wahhaha... It's Euro 12 for 2 pax.

No more pizza when I am home. 

My first Europe trip

Well, here I am in Slovenia, a country of beautiful terrain and without the letter 'y' and when the letter 'j' is presence, it is pronounced as 'y' or 'i'. hihi..

Now i know why there are people who rather pay more to NOT do transit. I have been travelling for almost 20 hours! Dono why, probably its the excitement...i don feel tired at all..at least not until I reach my hostel.

I really want to thank my buddies n my another half for coming to send me off. You all meant a lot to me. I've been thinkg alot about you all on the plane. If without you all, what am I? Making small meals for you all is just a small gesture to thank you all for the many big things you have made impact in my life. Thank you frens.

Love you ,Bee... from TorToise

The journey (KL to Slovenia)

KL - Singapore. B777 flight-SQ119. 9:50PM till 1045PM. It has a big toilet. haha. They even have an in flight entertainment system for short distance travel!

Singapore - London. A380!flight SQ322. 11:30PM(Sing time) till 6:30AM (UK time)

We rush like a mad man!First time inside Changi airport. Rushing from T1 to T3. The checks are very straight. We even have to take out our laptops. In EU, it was worst. Will blog more abt this later.

Airbus!Can u imagine...I am sitting on the Upperdeck. Not crowded at all! But I think the seats are too small for me. hihi... The air stewardess there are so nice,..well not exactly very beautiful but ok...tidy and pleasant, not too mention...matured.Air plane food is serious food. After flying for a while, we have our supper. Beef fillet with port wine sauce, roasted assorted vegies and potatoes. Too delicious until I forgot to taake a pix on it. Haha... Medium done on the beef. It goes well with white wine too...Trauma with red wine d, esp from the plane one. Haha...secret.

Had some nuts to go with my white wine again. ahaha...

I stayed up almost the whole journey,..managed to watch 3 movies. haha...

The journey is quite bouncy. but nonetheless, praise God, we safely made it. 

We had our 'light' breakfast 2 hours before we touch down in London. Steamed eggs with hollandaise, bacon and hash brown potato.It was suppose to be light...but...the bacon is really tempting. darn. I wish I had more. Welcome to the bacon country...UK! Almost EVERYTHING we eat got ham in it.

Buying ticket for the coach to go to Stansted Airport (LCCT of UK). The journey is far! Estimate around 1hr 45min to 2 hrs. THis LCCT flies to other european countries too so it is a good bargain if you can book early.
Double Decker,...Double Decker... the real THING!

Easy Jet Counter. The EU checks are very strict. I have to take out my belt, my boots, my laptop to let them check. Woo... Also, go to WHSmith shop...I wanted to drink water but i got no change...so, I bought The Daily Telegraph for 0.90 pence and get a 750ml water (1.35pound) free. wahaha...thats the cheapest.

This metal thingy is very canggih-fied. Not only can it stablized by just touch on the tip of each metal, it also rotates. Its taken from Stansted Airport. Tips: When u are there in Stansted, just go to inside the departure hall first. Inside got plenty of food and stores.

Welcome to Slovenia. This is the airport. I don't understand a thing there. It is so foreign to me. The journey took about 2 hours but we have to add 1 hr extra when reach. 1300 flight, reaching Ljubljana 1600.

I really got confused with time... its like playing time. whaha.... i lost count how many hours i have been travelling.

Touchdown in Heathrow airport at 6:30AM.(2:30PM Malaysia time). PG...u are right...when they look at skinny asian like me and my colleagues, they tot we are trying to overstay and i had a tough time explaining that im just passing by ur country to go to another country, so get ur butt out of my way. RUDE. This immigrant officer, she is really rude..probably to asians. nonetheless...SABAR!

I cant believe myself...IM in UK!The land whre the red double decker and the black. classico taxi roam the city. Well, too bad, we are just passing by this place. Immediately, we took a coach to Stansted Airport, UK LCCT. The journey on the coach is about 1hr 45min. Well, I think Malaysian time actually came from London. Not punctual at all. haha. We saw a lot of delays but thank God, ours are punctual. 9AM reaching Stansted about 1045AM. We rush to check in our bags.

Trip to Slovenia

I really want to thank God and give Him all the praise! He is indeed good to me. I was blessed with a trip to do maintenance work for my company's client in Slovenia. I got to travel!!! and this time ot Europe! Yea...Will be transitting in London. So, check out more from this site as I'll be posting a lot of pix and my stay over there:)

Praise God!

S.H.E new song.

New S.H.E song here:

I just love S.H.E as a group. 

I thank God

I thank Jesus for being with me throughout my miserable time...
I thank Jesus for giving me an opportunity of getting a car park in my apartment!
I thank Jesus for giving me the opportunity to share with my friends on health and nutrition!
I thank Jesus for always being with me whenever I travel.
I thank Jesus for the wonderful friends I had in my life.
I thank Jesus for making me, me :)

Operation Love

Do you wish to turn back time and ammend your mistakes in the past?Everyone who regrets now did think of it.
Recently I have watched a drama series on proposal and wedding. A Japanese series called Operation Love. Its about a guy who regretted not telling this girl who is going to get married that he had always love her. This guy was sent back to the past to correct his mistakes. The story goes on.
Have you ever regretted not telling someone you love in your life that you love them very much? I had.
Love and embrace them each and everyday without living a life regretful afterwards.

Money that was spent like water (part 2)

and doze off on the sofa...ZZzz.Call up aniu for lunch later but he is still sleeping..hihih.... so I also doze off again...Approx 12PM, he called and we met up for lunch. Woh,...he replace his Saga with MyVi SE. Canggih....Brought me to Pan Mee under the tree...haha..

Pan Mee, Rojak and Ling Teh - Aniu belanja....

We went to Queensbay Mall....had some men's talk on the way...scouting and checking out Penang girls. wakakakka... and had my favourite Hokkaido Ice Cream before we leave QB Mall.

Hokkaido Ice Cream for 2 pax - RM10.80. (Too bad, those girls aren't from Hokkaido )

Get my bike at around 3.30PM...was really rushing against time as the KTW B/W closes at 5PM! Rush thru the Penang Bridge , the Highway and the toll and with the direction Aniu gave me, I reached the KTM B/W by 4.15PM! That was close...

Motorbike shipment - RM88.50. (Pain in the @$$)

Then walked over to get the first bus to Ipoh ...Saw Kurnia Bestari but quickly shun it and pretend I didn't see it at all. Bad experience with them...Bought Sri Maju bus to Ipoh .

Sri Maju B/W - Ipoh (5.30PM) - RM10.70

Ok, I did some stupid thing here. The weather is hot and humid and dusty in the B/W bus station. Horrid... I am only thinking of I think... Air Con! Looking around but there's no KFC, McD or any shopping complex nearby! Crap.. So I walked further down to the main road...and finally found 7-11! I was so thrill that I opened the fridge several time pretending to choose my drinks. hhahah... bought one lousy drink

Green Tea with Honey and Tissue Paper - RM3.40

Imagine, I lepak there for about 10min and the sales person inside thought I wanted to do something funny inside..(Imagine carrying a big bag and holding a crash helmet) haha... I felt uncomfortable being looked like that, I finally chow and go back to the station...Boarded the bus at 5.30PM sharp! Unbelievable punctual!
Chatted in the bus with a USM student...young...and naive. hahaha... Nah...no chemistry....
haha.. mum and sis picked me up in Sri Maju station before we head to eat Taugeh Chicken

Taugeh Chicken - RM 32

That's my trip from KL - Penang - Butterworth - Ipoh - Kampar on Saturday (02/08/08).

Imagine I have been traveling across 3 states in just the span of 24 hours! Tired... Exhausted!
Lepaked at home the following 2 days had durians...loads of durians...and mum home cook food... for the first time, i didn't eat out in Kampar! Hahaha....
These are the money spent on the following 2 days!

Dental care (Scaling and Tampal) - RM95 (Eerie...but my teeth are clean!)
Helmet face shield - RM10
Edaran Kampar - KL (2.30PM) - RM22 for 2pax

Back in KL on the 4th of August, stopped at the Pasar Seni area..was also rushing to the KTM KL to get my bike before they charged me additional RM6 for late reception of bike. Got the bike and ADV had a first taste of KL life after so long. hihi...
Went back to Taman Desa and pump petrol. Imagine...I am using my credit card to pump a 2.73L petrol. Haha... how much is that? hihi...bet the petrol owner will curse me. haha..

Petrol - RM7.37
Helmet and Number Plat - RM 39
AEN service - RM100 (This is killer...changed spark plug, air filter and oil filter. I use ELF engine oil which I supply it. ahahha)

So....whats the total usage for the weekend? Drum roll please...
~ RM 633.17 ~
So, I hope i can get back my ROI by riding my bike to work every day!

Money spent like water

Last weekend, I spent quite a lot on things that was neccesary and also important but can be done later. Here goes the listing:



Plusliner KL - Penang (11:59PM Fri) - RM26.80

Reached Penang about 5.00AM in Sg Nibong Station. It was dark but thank God, there's one stall opened...lepaked for 30mins before making the decision to walk to Pelita Square (I think).

Was hoping for a Cyber Cafe to be operating 24hours..and there's really one there! Kewl! Had breakfast in Pelita before going to Infinity (Cybercafe). Actually, the main purpose for me to be there is to sleep with air con. hahah...

Breakfast in Pelita - RM3.40

Cyber cafe - RM2 (good one if u want to rest with aircon)

Pooi Choong had promised to fetch me from the Station at 7AM but i really don want to disturb his sleep so I just walk over to Pekaka... Pekaka really reminds me a lot of my days in Penang...particularly when Che is still staying there...Ooo miss Che Che pulak.

Went inside the apartment...nothing much changes. My pile of stuff are still there... wahahaha...

Now, the funny part is here... both Pooi Choong and I decided we go and check out my motor (this is the main purpose of coming back to Penang). From far, it seems okay but when we try to start the motor...its not working! So we decided to push it to the workshop nearby. JAM! The front wheel is JAM! The bearing is not working! Thank God, it is just 1 wheel. So what we do was, I pushed from the front wheel while Pooi Choong pull from the back wheel. Super duper exhausted! Thank you PC! Besto housemate!

talk talk talk sing sing song with the workshop man...haha... according to the workshopman, if the engine jam, don't expect to take it today... phew...only the carburater got jam. That one also, he'll need until 4PM to finish it. I was a bit afraid as I have budgeted my time to get this motor sent over to KL by today..

Cost of reparing motor - RM179.50 (Choked me abit)

So after sending my bike to the workshop, i called up Hooi Ling...for breakfast. We went supertanker. It was so different. I had some Penang food...

Chee Cheong Fun - RM1.20

Chao Kuey Tiow and Nescafe Ais - Hooi Ling belanja..

I can actually eat more but thanks to the breakfast in Pelita...

So, since Hooi Ling got to rush back to her hometown, I got to spend my time in the apartment myself as Pooi Choong got Call of Duty from his gf. hahaha....

The star - RM1.50

Read newspaper in the apartment (continue part 2)

Zero Hours are driving me crazy...

For unknown reason, I just can't load pix here in blogspot. Mm.. nvm. Nonetheless...Generals: Zero Hours is killing me...
Man...I'm so addicted to it now... The BBF have taken this as a weekly activities...which could drag till late nights/wee hours in the morning. Argh... imagine chipping money to my addiction... i wonder is it the same 'addiction' feeling like those who are addicted to ... alcohol, ONS, ..?
I wonder....
-Alex is wondering what should he do tonight to curb his addiction... Reading a book?-

Going back to where I belong

After a big round, guess I need to stick back to where I belong. I need to be where my roots are. Nothing can be done without consulting the one who provides with grace.
Commitment and Discipline are the main thing in growing spiritually.

Not so young after all

Haha...Beenhaving late nights outings with BBFers lately. It's fun actually. But guess, when u started work and when u are 26, ur system just going to tell u that you are in deep trouble on Monday. True enough, Mondays are the hardest. I can't concentrate at all, thanks to CnC and mamak till 530am! To add to that, we watch Hancock which ended at 1230am before heading to A&W for supper...Had some politics talk before we talk cock again. haha...reached home at 230am....super jam thanks to the RMP...
Guess, true rest is good rest and sufficient rest. I think this syndrome is going to be there for a few days...
No more CnC, No more mamak, No more BBF meeting ...... for now.
What to do then? What do you do as a single? Well, basically or technically, I'm not too keen in going after girls yet...so flirting or courting will be striped out from the list...
What else? Futsal....maybe.
Just love the game...for the first time, I played with such enjoyment...was steady but also clumsy sometimes (too tired), scored a couple...but one of the most wonderful goals i had ever scored...kewl!
I still feel missing. I have frens around me. I think i need a company at home.
- I'm missing you -

Are you alone?

Sometimes depending too much on others feeling will make life too miserable. You don't live for others but for yourself.
A lot of thought wondering,...whether to continue staying, whether to continue the journey,...but there were no thoughts for my ownself...what I want in life.
I knew that the big recession is coming...and yet I am not doing anything about it. I knew what needs to be done but why I am not committed and hardworking in looking towards my future..
what do you want, Mr Sim?
- Not purpose driven -

Depression

I think I am depress.
I need to move out from where I stay.
I need fresh air.
I need to face it.

A painful ending

Endings aren't always happy. Especially when it is a short ones. I'm deem to wear the loser hat in relationship again. It has been closing to the 4th month since I broke up. Nothing changes in me but everything changes around me. Or is it vice versa. Not many knew about this. If I talked more, I'll sound like complaining. I actually want to move on with life. Life is so beautiful. I want to get out from my mess now.
If I felt insecure with life, haha..., no doubt my other half will also feel even insecured. The truth of life...No money no talk. No future no talk. No plans no talk. It doesn't really matter how much love and cares you put in...you will only get "Thank You, you are so Lovely, Alex".
ha. I have not been so disgrunted with life but I am today. Sorry.....God...
It wasn't as bad as the first breakout but is equally miserable. I have been hunching...but got even worst as Im shouldering mountains of stress that I could have ignore in the first place. You know, sometimes I really thought of leaving all this behind...run away....meet new people but guess what...the cycle repeats. It's something wrong with you, my man....my Alex man.... "Male by birth, Man by Choice" I'm sure a lot of you out there knew this phrase.
I hate myself for being who I am. If can, I want to blame the whole world. "Stress is only coming from yourself". I have a lot of quotes-unquotes...which are actually from a lot of my friends who gave advice to me. Thanks... The problem is to sink those good advice into my damn brain and practise it. Damn Alex, you think too much...
Current situation: Broke...Broken...Lost -> Much more like the revival of BBF.
Future situation: I need help....I think i got depression...
How do you see yourself in 5 years time: Dead but Alive!

Is this what I am looking for?

Is there a place in the society for the likes of me? Ego and prideful, but low in confidence and esteem. The whole belief system is not right to begin with. I walk a misery road trying to find answers. Be positve always but I'll end up where I began. Is there a place for me in this society? It wasn't easy to take in sharp and painful scoldings but he got his point. Rome wasn't built in one day...so I guess I'll only be lying if I say I have changed within a day? Sometimes I felt like I was a punching bag because of the stains the couldn't be erased. This is what we call the Life University. Welcome!
Life stills goes on with or without me but I was made for a purpose. Can I know that?

- I am an athlete who doesn't know what shoe to run for which track of life -

Never Give Up

Alex Sim,
you can do it...never give up! 31st May 2008 is the last day. You have less than 48 hours to complete your goal! Never give up!

Pentacost Sunday (sermon 11th May 2008)

As we celebrate Mother's Day on he 11th of May, we also remember the events that happenned 10 days after Jesus was taken to heaven. We remember the 120 followers of Jesus Christ, heeded the advice from the Lord, waiting faithfully with prayer upon the gift of the Holy Spirit to come down to them.
Yes, a miracle happen. The works of the Holy Spirit amongst the 120 followers and disciples of Jesus Christ-received the baptism of Fire! The same day is also the Harvest day in Jerusalem. Remember that Jesus in the Gospel of Matthew speaks of commisioning the disciples to reach all throught Samaria, Galilee, Asia and the whole world? It has to be happen on the same day! All around Asia and the known world that time, people gathered in Jerusalem for this Harvest festival, witnesses the power and the work of the Holy spirit, heard the Good News in their own native language (other than Greek which was the common language that time). Peter, filled with the Holy Spirit, putting his shame aside (He denied Jesus 3 times), declared the same Jesus whom the Jews crucified, had risen, conquered death, ascended to heaven and will come back again! He, with the conviction of the Holy Spirit, asking the 'people from the whole world' to repent and be baptized for the forgiveness of sin. Speak of revival! 3000 souls were saved! Halleluyah.
11th May is also the Global Prayer Day. As I look deeper in this, I found that I have a purpose in my life to move on.
We need Revival in our lives, in the town we lived in, in the country we serve as a citizen. Are we waiting for the BIG HARVEST? then, commit yourself into prayer. commit yourself into reading the word of the Lord. commit yourself to the Lord.
Revival is a prayer away. Your townsmen needs you. Your country needs prayer.
Life is not just ourselves. I, me, mine. It's about sharing the good news, just like Peter.

My friends

Friends are really like diamonds. you got to polish each other up with encouragements and advicing each other. You will never know how a friend until you be a friend...
Thank you for being a good friend in my life...to you all out there!

Good partnership

I need a partner who shares the same dream with me. This journey can't be done by just myself. Sometimes, I felt drifted away but this partner will bring me back on track.
This partner is the one that reminds us of our dreams back again when we face challenges and obstacles in life. Also, this partner challenges each other to focus on our dream.
I am looking for you.... partner.

Tough times aint that tough

Yesterday had a good time with Ah man...A lot of reality check for her before she comes out and work. I found that I am actually telling myself what I should do when I face such circumstances. Thanks Ah man for letting me remind myself again ;)
Ya, the life of Rich DeVos and Jay Van Andel really inspired me a lot to take risk in life and be decisive. Was at the chapter where they were in their sinking boat Elizabeth...they learnt to be flexible with circumstances. Cool!~!
More to come...

How to be like Rich DeVos!

Currently reading this book.
The more I read, the more it resembled a fantastic leader that I worked with. His passion was so powerful, it influenced a big crowd.
This is a biography book of the life of Mr Richard M. DeVos. It also tells of the leadership quality of him. Humble yet firm. Walk the Talk Christian.
Salute him. Way to go!
Can't wait to finish it!

My journey ends here....almost

My journey has been a very rough one. I've got no meaning to continue. Why did I get started in the first place? Agony, Confuse, Angry.
Guess God only gave us 1 . When it's game over, we can't restart.
It's really painful. I really want to cry it out loud. Stalemate. Pause, long one. Tears don't flow down from the check, they became stagnant in my heart.
Nothing is clear in front of me, not even a gleams of what is going to happen next. Some might suggest this is the Quarter Age crisis.
Alex, mount on. Alex, push on. Alex, don't give up. Even at your very last breath.
'Every tears you cried, it's precious in His eyes' - Come back to the Father.
Guess this is my journey, and I got to move on.

I'm back

I'm back again!