Why does greed has to be in there in human, some might ask? After the Fall of Man, sin crept into the heart of man and greed is on of them. Insecurity also one of them. Bribery is also one of them. I can clearly remember the first time I actually did the short way out when I was still holding a 'P' motor license and I ride on a wrong way. I was chased by the police and i did what i shouldn't do. Yes, i bribed. That was one of the moment in my life I felt very guilty about. Other 2 incidents were quite similar. Stop by police, bribed. These are the 3 times in my life I have used monetary to escape punishment and i really do felt bad. My real reason was fear rather than hassle.
I have been standing firm with my decision on NOT bribing when I was caught breaking the traffic laws and Praise the Lord, i managed to (Not that I am careless in driving).
Today brought me to another new level of struggle in my work. I got to understand that to be in this industry, I just got to do the usual way to get business in. I know this is bound to happen when I accept this job but I didn't know it will come so fast. I'm struggling. I am yet to make a decision myself. Today's lesson in CG gave me an insight of what the Lord wants to tell me. Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. I can only surrender to Him and tell Him, I am nothing. I can't do anything. Lord, please work a miracle in my life. I want to honour Your Name and that I what I want to do!
