My journey ends here....almost

My journey has been a very rough one. I've got no meaning to continue. Why did I get started in the first place? Agony, Confuse, Angry.
Guess God only gave us 1 . When it's game over, we can't restart.
It's really painful. I really want to cry it out loud. Stalemate. Pause, long one. Tears don't flow down from the check, they became stagnant in my heart.
Nothing is clear in front of me, not even a gleams of what is going to happen next. Some might suggest this is the Quarter Age crisis.
Alex, mount on. Alex, push on. Alex, don't give up. Even at your very last breath.
'Every tears you cried, it's precious in His eyes' - Come back to the Father.
Guess this is my journey, and I got to move on.